I Accept As True

So far, everything’s quite doing nicely; uncertain though for how long it’ll be. In this world, the only undeviating thing is the word change. Life’s unceasing change is set; nothing’s a surefire hit and you have to be prepared for it. Change can make up or break up; triumph or suffer defeat.

I accept as true.

Make Or Break

It is when you look back and dredges up undertakings in the past that you realize, those helped sculpt your moral fiber at present. It may be hurtful or even wounding and haunting happenings; nevertheless it rallied round you to be a better person now. Then, I was discontented of some things; I always felt like something’s missing. I wasn’t sure what it was; all I know was there’s a thing or two that need to ensue for me to feel complete.. Satisfied.

I thought now, “bakit nga ba ang tao walang contentment?” Blessings have been pouring ceaselessly, still you keep asking for more. When difficulties arise, you ask questions. You hold God or other people accountable for it. You tell yourself you don’t deserve the sufferings you face. And then you start to defy the norms, and change your way of life. Hay ang tao talaga..

The question now, change for the better or you get worse?

As for me, it worked well. I have learned to accept whatever comes and what’s there to come; whatever will be, will be. I have bowed to welcome all the comings and goings of my life with a positive outlook. I still feel pain though. The difference between then and now.. Now, I don’t whine and grumble to a great extent straight away. I realized how blessed I am; and learned to be appreciative of all things that come, both the good and the not so good. I say a tacit thank you to those who have caused me hurt some time ago. I am what I am now because I have come across people like them. The sting of the past set me out to take in a lot that I have missed and undervalued at one time.

I am a better person now.

Happy Birthday Len!

Happy Birthday Mahal!

Dear Len,

Happy Birthday Mahal!

I know for sure your mood’s on the other side of ‘happy and delighted.’ You always are when this date comes around; always been like that. I know how you struggle to find contentment. Who isn’t, anyway? All of us do. You have lived through a lot of hurt. Some people may have let you feel unworthy and undeserving. Just remember, you are one good person, with a clear soul… and everyone loves you for it.

I’ve always been praying for you to get hold of that bliss and serenity. I know more than anyone does, you sure are one worthy individual who deserves to be happy and content. Just keep up Mahal; I know it’ll soon be handed to you.

I hope to see you on your next birthday wearing that endearing smile of gladness.

You will get by… I am here, as always. Happy Birthday!


With all the love in my heart, TinTin

Holy (Golly) Thursday

Holy Thursday’s Visita Iglesia day for us. We headed on down South for it.. Caleruega, Batangas first stop.

I don’t know, feeling ko I regret na sumama pa ko! We all met up at the Petron Gas Station, SLEX. Damn the place was exaggeratedly crammed full! Lahat yata ng tao nasa galaan. Long line everywhere, McDonald’s packed out. Lahat umo-order ng hamburger and chicken (bawal po ang karne pag holy week)! So much for the supposedly contemplation and so as it is said penitence during Holy Week! Traffic was terrible; temperature was exceedingly hot to top it all (eto ang penitensya).

When we reached Caleruega, people are just everywhere. The church place was awesome.. The catch? May 20bucks (per person, take note) entrance fee! Okaay.. ngayon lang ako nakakita ng simbahan na pag pumasok ka, may bayad! One more church stop before we were able to take our lunch. It was 3p already, lunch pa lang kami. Temperature then was cold na. Then all of a sudden I felt sick, nag-chill ako. 3 more churches to finish off Stations of the Cross, hindi ko na nakaya, hindi na ko nakababa ng van. Fever’s gone up to 39.8 and my head aches terribly. When we got home I took 2 Tylenol mom gave me, and pinatawag nagma-massage sa amin. After the rub, I felt better; fever’s gone down a bit. I slept early last night and kanina when I woke up fever’s gone and medyo okay na pakiramdam ko. Thank you!

Truly, my day yesterday was penitence and contrition!

I think I'm In Love

I’m in a schmaltzy aura… I’ve no idea whatsoever. I think I'm in love; well at least feeling in love in actual fact.

I took notice of this song “ako’y iyong-iyo” over the radio and I kinda’ liked it. It’s not a love song I know; squishy it is nonetheless.

Ako'y iyong-iyo

Ilang beses na akong sumapit
Tuwing ito’y sumasapit
Mauubos ang mga palusot ko
Irog ako’y nagsisisi, ‘wag nang mabusisi
Peksman ako ay magbabago

Batid ko ang kasalanan patawad na hirang
Di ba’t tayo’y nagsumpaan tungo natin simbahan

Tapusin na natin ang mga tampuhan
Na tiyak iyong maaasahan

Ako’y iyong iyo
Wag mo na sanang pahirapan ang damdamin ko
Sana ako’y pakinggan mo
Pagkat ‘di na mauulit ang panloloko
Ako’y iyong iyo
Wag mo na sanang pahirapan ang puso ko
Sana ako’y pakinggan mo
Pagkat ‘di na mauulit ang panloloko

Ngayon ako’y napapagod
Walang mga bisyo kung ‘di magpaalipin sa’yo
Tanging ikaw ang ligaya
Dulot mo’y pag-asa at sa’kin ay wala ng iba

Magmula sa ngayon ako ay nangangako
Di bibigyan ng pansin
O tingin ang tawag ng tukso

Doesn't Exist

I got to watch ‘Hitch’ already.. finally! The film was okay, funny and witty; touching at the same time. It carried a light and carefree mood all through out. As usual, there were a few scenes that got me. I just can’t help it! Ganon yata talaga pag sloppy form of person ka. The movie said a lot about affection, warmth and fondness..

scene1
Albert: “Do you know what it feels like when you wake up every morning feeling helpless? Knowing when she wakes up, she’s with the wrong guy and still hoping she finds happiness, even if it’s never going to be with you?”

scene2
Sara: “Remember what you told me, that we’ll be fine moving to our own paths?”
Hitch: “What if fine’s not good enough? What if I want extraordinary?”
Sara: “Doesn’t exist..”

Dear. Meron pa talaga kayang mga ganitong klaseng guys? Wala na yata talagang gustong mag-settle sa one and only love ngayon, because I am actually convinced.. With all the stories I hear, from first-hand infos to hand me downs, guys are all but the same, identical a**holes!

Where can you find this breed? If you can find one, if there is still.. Tell me. Yet for now, until I find one..

..Doesn’t exist.

The Question And The Answer

Funny. Moral of the story.. Dear, never ask a question if you aren't prepared for the answer.

In a trial, a Southern small town prosecuting attorney called his first witness to the stand.

The witness was a grand motherly, elderly woman. He approached her and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know me?" She responded, "Why, yes I do know you, Mr. Williams. I've known you since you were a young boy, and frankly, you've been a big disappointment to me. You lie; you cheat on your wife, manipulate people and talk about them behind their backs. You think you're a big shot when you haven't had the brains to realize you never will amount to anything more than a two-bit paper pusher. Yes, I know you. "

The Lawyer was stunned. Not knowing what else to do, he pointed across the room and asked, "Mrs. Jones, do you know the defense attorney?"

She again replied, "Why yes, I do. I've known Mr. Bradley since he was a youngster, too. He's lazy, bigoted and he has a drinking problem. He can't build a normal relationship with anyone and his law practice is one of the worst in the entire state. Not to mention he cheated on his wife with three different women, one of them was your wife. Yes, I know him." The defense attorney almost died.

The judge asked both counselors to approach the bench, and in a very quiet voice, said, "If either of you bastards asks her if she knows me, I'll throw you in jail for contempt."

Boys Do Fall In Love

Monday night’s just like other Monday nights.. lackluster, tedious and dreary. I sat on my much loved chaise lounge and searched for some good stuff to watch on the tube. I saw this Tagalog comedy sitcom, ‘Lagot ka, isusumbong kita!’ It’s the new ‘Palibhasa Lalake’ style. Parang gusto kong matawa tonight, so I settled on. They have this opening dance number; sobrang nakakatawa, hindi ko talaga nakayanan. Imagine Richard Gomez, Joey Marquez, Benjie Paras, Raymart Santiago and Berwin.. They bopped with the tune of ‘Boys do fall in love.’

Ang saya! After I watched it, feeling ko nakabawi ako.. okay na, pwede na to. Enjoy na Monday night ko!

Wala! Naisip ko lang i-share..

Boys Do Fall In Love
Baby said you had to be a lover
One way or the other
Nobody wins without once giving in
So don't cry now, don't cry now

Love is just a game you played in high school
Girls know how to be cruel
Most of the time girls are cruel to be kind
So don't cry now, don't cry now

And we try to be cool as we dance in a crowded room
At the end of the day, makin' love to a paper moon

She said, boys do fall in love, they make time
They get love on a Saturday night
And she said, hearts beat as they dance
In the street to a radio, oh
Boys fall in love

Baby knows I like to be excited
No one wants to fight it
It's getting late so I'll just demonstrate
Don't cry now, don't cry now

And we try to be cool as we dance in a crowded room
At the end of the day, makin' love to a paper moon

And she said, boys do fall in love, they make love
They get love on a Saturday night
And she said, hearts beat
As they dance In the street to a radio

Oh, boys do fall in love
They get love on a Saturday night
And she said, hearts beat
As they dance in the street to a radio
Oh, boys fall in love

Boys do fall in love..

What Is Left Of Me

I have come to realize how much I love you. Nevertheless after the realization, I too thought, there a lot of other things that need consideration more than just considering my deep feelings for you…

Self respect. Self esteem. Self worth. Self love…

… And what is left of me?

You're Inlove

A rave up from the past.. I love this song! How I fancy it’s this painless to let go.

You're Inlove

Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.

And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

Aah, my love, Aah
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love

Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.

But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be

I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love
Oh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love..

Will There Be A Morning

I hope so..

Will there really be a morning
When the night is gone
Will there be a dawn
To greet me urge me to go on
Is there no home for me
To even love again

Will there really be a morning
Or is this the end
Will there really be a sunrise when
The darkness dies
Will the strength to last'll be there
To fight the fears inside
The nights are so endless
Endless as it seems

Will there really be a morning or
Is this a dream
Days have come and days have passed
I wish the morning stayed
I pray that they would last
For in those mornings I
Could see what it meant to be free
Will there really be light again
When this tunnel fades
Will I reach out and touch it
I will I be afraid
I just hoped that
I'll still be there just that
I may see

Will there really be a morning to
Come for me
For in those mornings
I could see what it meant
To be free

..Will there really be a morning to
Come for me

More Or Less

I’m not convinced I was in my clear state of mind when I made that decision. It was so sudden; impetuous.

Should there be regret? None for now, I guess. Though I’m certain the choice I made would without a doubt cause me another smash up, I settled on choosing what my stubborn hub kept telling me. I know it is such a stupid, dim-witted, unintelligent kind of act, still I ran the risk of it (call me a love fool). No clear-cut stage for now and I’m uncertain until when can I hold on. One wouldn’t want to stay on the gray ground.. eventually I would need to choose, black or white.

More than friends, less than lovers; no label, it’s just the title anyway. But really, what’s in a name? Will labeling the kind of relationship two beings share would mean a more fervent bond for them? Will this stand for a more explicit link with each other? I guess not. It is how you share the union, the attachment you build; how you choose to grow together. I wanna believe..

I have managed to breathe in life quietly in the past so months. I endeavored each and every workable way to pull through and get back on track. I thrived. Now, it’s here again. What is it this time? Am I being put to test? How far can I go still? My answer.. I’m not sure to any further extent. Just go by it.. we’ll see.

I can't fully describe; I don't know how to dub it. All I’m positive about, this time it’s not suffer defeat for me and I’m all geared up.

What It Really Meant

What do we actually mean by such? Understand and go by it..

FINE
women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

FIVE MINUTES
If she 's getting dressed, this is half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given 5 more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

NOTHING
The calm before the storm. This means 'something' and you should be on your toes. An argument that begins with 'Nothing' usually ends in 'Fine.'

GO AHEAD
A dare, not permission. Don't do it.

LOUD SIGH
This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over 'Nothing.'

THAT'S OKAY!
One of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. 'That's Okay!' means that she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

THANKS
A woman is thanking you. Do not question it or faint. Just say you're welcome.

The Most Wonderful Of All

The most wonderful of all things in life is the discovery of another human being with whom one's relationship has a growing depth, beauty and joy as the years increase. This inner progressiveness of love between two human beings is the most marvelous thing; it cannot be found by looking for it or by passionately wishing for it. It is a sort of divine accident, and the most wonderful of all things in life..

Sent to me by Tejaswini (from India).. a new found friend. Thank you dear.