All About Love

• What do you think of courting? Doing it the traditional way (meaning guys making the first move) or the unconventional way (absolutely girls liable for the actions).. whatever works for one, okay lang.
• Do you believe that friends can be lovers, but lovers can never be friends?
  Friends can be lovers, yeah; lovers can never be friends.. depends. Ako so far, they have become good friends of mine.
• Do you believe that you can learn to love someone kahit hindi mo talaga sya mahal? Love begets love.. I believe. Meaning, if yung tao na yun ready na mahalin ka faithfully and katanggap-tanggap naman superficial appeal and character niya… who wouldn’t fall?
• What's your ideal partner?
  Wala na yatang faithful na guy ngayon talaga.. so I wouldn’t ask for one na. Ideal for me would be someone responsible, optimistic, loves life. Ideal for me would be someone who will accept me for who and what I am; someone who believes in me.
• Have you met your soulmate? Parang hindi pa..
• Is it true na ang love nawawala o nababawasan lang? It isn't lost. Sometimes nagkakaroon lang ng modification of priorities.. yung dati-dati most important and imperative, nagiging least significant.
• Have you really let go of someone? Yes. I had to..
• How many bfs/gfs have you had? 3 boyfriends.
• Are you always serious when it comes to relationships? Most of the time yes.
• Which one do you prefer, friendship or relationship? Friendship
• Why? It’s always there..
• Have you fallen in love with your bestfriend? No.
• Have you fallen in love with someone you regret on loving? Sort of. Not naman regretting exactly..
• If yes, why do you regret? Naiisip ko lang it could’ve worked best if I settled on being his best friend na lang.
• Are you in a serious/fling relationship right now or just plain single?
  Married.
• Are you a player?
  Dream ko to be.. eheh!
• Are you too serious with your relationships?
  Yes, most of the time.
• Are you a martyr? Sometimes.
• Do you believe in marriage first before living in or vice-versa? Pwede.
• Why? Depende sa viewpoint mo. Immoral daw sabi ng iba, pero who’s who to say so?
• Are you a still say yes person or a no, no, no when it comes to reconciliation with any of your exs? Still say yes person.
• Do you look ahead to your future or do you look behind to your past?
  In an ideal world dapat ‘look ahead to your future’ and gaze behind your past.. you learn from it.
• Why do you think most relationships don’t last?
  One didn’t want it to last.. and the other follows.
• Do you really think love can conquer all? Why? No. 'Baby sometimes love just ain’t enough..'
• What’s your motto when it comes to love? "Love fails, only when we fail to love.."
  What most people need to learn in life is how to love people and use things instead of using people and loving things.

Nonsense Realization

I haven’t been in my writing aura lately. I don’t know why, really. I’m guessing the reason, for one, work is all over me and my psyche’s so exhausted with it. An old friend once told me he considered writing as a therapy, one of his ways to relax and ease out. I see eye to eye.

Most of the time, I write about feelings, stance and perspectives. I write a lot about emotions. I treat emotion and passion with affection… I am a sentimental person. Well who is not? I believe everyone is, however each one has its own way of baring it. Alam mo yun, your thoughts are just flowing when you’re sad or you feel empty… pag ma-emote ka, mas marami kang nasusulat, mas marami kang gustong i-share. Yeah, ganon talaga, we like to share sad love stories or depressing undertakings. Tapos lahat na lang ng songs na naririnig mo naa-associate mo sa lahat ng mga nangyari syo! Feeling mo ikaw lagi pinapatamaan. Tipong ‘humanap ka ng panget’ na yung naririnig mo na song, naa-associate mo pa rin (ang sagwa ah!) sa buhay mo! It is absolutely normal, hindi yun weird. Mas weird pa nga if deadma ka lang.

So, ano ba talaga gusto kong i-point out dito sa entry na to?! Wala, walang sense…

Wait a minute! Does this mean, I’m A okay now? Na hindi lang overworked ang reason ko kaya wala ako sa mood magsulat lately? Na my life’s happy and peaceful now that’s why wala akong masulat sa blog ko na sensible?! Whoa!

Is this really nonsense? Or it is a realization?

My Wave5 Friends

When nighttime falls, surely it is the start of our day. Just when daytime people ready themselves to head home, we, call center individuals prepare ourselves to go to work. We are ‘the other extreme’ indeed. I hark back to our TeleTech days.. 10p-7a shift, with a Thu-Fri off. Red, Jake, Don, Toffie, Rache, Mae, Shahann, Paul and I... We all meet up 730p, Starbucks, BlueWave. Feast, chitchat, coffee and cigs, and we talk about everything. We laugh about other people’s booboos (well most of them were, yeah, our batch mates) during training.

Oh jheez! I miss the old times.. I wish I can go back.

Now, we’re all headed on to different avenues. Red, Mae and Shahann, careers going great. Jake, off with his always jealous (now ex… Thank God!) girlfriend. Toffie, still Toffie and naka-move on na raw siya.. friend na lang pagtingin niya kay Paul. Paul, doing well abroad. Rache, gave birth to a cutie baby girl. Don, busy making money. And I, I am engaged. Yup, engaged! I am so much engaged with work.. damn right.

We get to see each other from time to time, si Paul pa-friendster-friendster. Kahit naman disaster kami sa TeleTech, happy pa rin kami kasi that’s where we all met. Sobrang sira-ulo nilang lahat. Until now nga nag-iisip pa rin ako ng reason bakit ako napasama sa kanila, matino naman ako.. eheh! I really had a fun and wonderful time with this bunch of cool people.

I thought of writing this kasi bigla ko silang na-miss lahat, totoo talaga!

Kahit hindi ako nagpaparamdam lately, busy lang talaga sa work sobra.. I hope those guys know I cherish all our memories and that I am always here with all the love in my heart.. through highs and lows.

Define I Love You

Define "iloveyou."

It is complex. It is diverse; if not to all, at least for some… And I am one of them.

For me, "iloveyou" is intense; deep and profound. DEEP emotions matter. It has passion, affection, with high regard, full of sympathy; it is attachment and dedication all rolled into one. It is PROFOUND; full of meaning.

I wonder how easy it is for some people to say ‘iloveyou’ though they don’t actually mean it... Every so often, one says "iloveyou," however means the other extreme.

Now you tell me… How do you define your ‘iloveyou?’

When Dimness And Shadows Fall

As it is, the night’s longer than usual… odd when you have been keeping yourself unavailable and bushed all through the day just to make your night-time passing.

You know, seek, and give a go to each and every possible approach to break away from the blankness and solitude you feel when dimness and shadows fall…

Show me light and bliss…

…I have long been waiting for it.

So Its You

‘So its you…’ this song’s from way back. It’s the theme song of a local movie to be shown soon. Yaikks! Kadiri man aminin, kinilig ako sa melody and sa lyrics… love junkie?! Walang pakialamanan, no!

Seriously, don’t you ever dream of it? Telling someone, “so its you, I’ve been waiting for so long… so its you, where were you all along? We are here, you and I, we belong…” Parang you’re telling that person na you’ve been waiting for him all your life and now that he’s here, your life’s fulfilled already. Tipong, “I never knew my life was incomplete until you came”… ”you were the missing piece…” etc.” Cheesy?! Nakakasuya pero hwag kayong umarte lahat, kasi totoo po sinasabi ko!

Hay life… Buti sana kug may lovelife…

So its you
We smiled and that's how it all started,
And you came right in time
When I needed someone
And we said hello,
Suddenly my heart was beating fast...

So it's you
I've been waiting for so long,
So it's you, where were you all along?
Very special moments, these will always be with me,
We are here, you and I, we belong.

We touched and we felt more beautiful,
And two hands reachin' out
Filled with so much longing; It felt good inside,
There is no denying
I'm in love.

So it's you I've been waiting for so long,
So it's you, where were you all along?
Very special moments, these will always be with me,
We are here, you and I, we belong
We are here, you and I, we belong...

How Do You Heal A Broken Heart?

How Do You Heal A Broken Heart

I can't believe what I just heard
Could it be true
Are you the girl I thought I knew
The one who promised me her love
Where did it go
Does anybody ever know

How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never beat this much again

I just can't let go
How do you heal a broken heart
That feels like it will never love this much again
Oh no
Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to let you go

And were you ever what you seemed
Or was I a fool who fell in love
With his own dream
And now you say you want to leave
Start a new life today
Those words I thought you'd never say

Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find that I have finally found
A new lifeIn my soul
And find that I know how to let you go

Tonight I'll hold what could be right
Tomorrow I'll pretend to
Wake and put it all behind me
And find that I know how to let you go

Body And Soul

Oh jheez! Did I miss a lot? I missed my journal. Really! The entire week’s been damn hectic for me, it was fun nonetheless. I feel drained.

I’m getting a nice and soothing rub tonight. I need it… body and soul!

What Might Have Been

What might have been

Somewhere, lost in the wind
I'm watching you
Sunlight touching your hair
And I remember
Somehow, we said that we would never stray
But somehow we lost our way
Promises too often spoken
Are easily broken apart

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be
A fool wondering what might have been

Trace of forever lingering
Drawing me closer to you
A new beginning
Now I know
There is no doubt I understand
Just how fragile love can be
I can't forget
Your mem'ry found me
Now I know where I belong

I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be a fool wondering
What might have been
Through every day, into the night
With only love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I've got to know
What might have been
Let the lovin' decide, I can't run, I can't hide

I want you to know
My heart will show that I'm ready this time
I know that I'm no longer undecided
Don't wanna be, a fool wondering what might have been
I've searched everywhere, and nothing compares
When we've got love to guide us
I'm ready to go, coz I wanna know what might have been
I'm wondering what might have been
We're gonna find what might have been
Oh I wanna know what might have been

Intelligence Test

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson

"Fall, with you I fall so fast I can hardly catch my breath I hope it lasts" In 2004 you fell in love. Let's hope it lasts.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

Until Then (Hanggang Sa Muli)

Kahit masyado na kitang nami-miss,
pakiramdam ko parang nakapaligid ka sa akin,
ang pagmamahal mo.
Kahit paano gumaganda ang araw ko
at parang bahagi ka ng lahat ng ginagawa ko.
Kaya ko lahat ang mga problema ko
at kaya kong gawin ang lahat kapag ikaw ang nasa isip ko.
Nagiging masayahin ako,
lumalakas ang loob ko,
at higit sa lahat, inspirado ako.

Ang sarap isipin na nagiging malapit na rin ako sa iyo
dahil sa iyong mga magagandang alaala.
Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na muli tayong magsasama…

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Free Will

It was a Sunday; a time-out from the exhausting works for everyone.

Bruce Almighty… Who would have thought a Jim Carrey film, will make one whimper? However, I did shed tears. It was again shown in Star Movies and luckily, we were able to catch it from start to finish. Well, most of the scenes were, yeah, funny. But the message it passed on was not something to undervalue. It surely is salient.

Ang daming scenes na nakaka-touch yung lines. It was so real. One can definitely relate, be it a man or a woman. I’m sharing these two scenes that in fact hit me. Not for any superficial emotional reason but I just felt that it was sincere.

Scene 1
Bruce: “She left me!
God: “I know.”
Bruce: “She’ll take me back. She’ll take me back… she’ll take me back, right?”
God answered by moving His shoulders, giving Bruce that ‘who-knows’ look.
Bruce: “How can you make someone love you without messing with free will?”
God: “Welcome to My world, son. When you find the answer to that question, you let Me know...”

Scene 2
Bruce: “Hi.”
Grace: “Hi.”
Bruce: “How are you?”
Grace: “I’m good.”
Bruce: “Yeah (smiles)?”
Grace: “Yeah. What are you doing here?”
Bruce: “Today’s my premiere for anchor.”
Grace: “Oh, that’s great. Congratulations!”
Bruce: “Thank you… I missed you!”
Grace: “Bruce, please...”
Bruce: “I did the first move. It’s now all in you.”
Grace: “I’m sorry, I have to go.”
As grace leaves, Bruce makes bizarre and funny actions as he tries to spellbind Grace, asking her to comeback and love her again.
Bruce: “Love me… love me… love me again...”
Grace: “Have you gone really insane?!”
Bruce: “Love me… love me… love me…”
Grace: “I did.”
And then grace turns her back, leaving Bruce looking so vulnerable. Bruce looks up and talks to God.
Bruce: “Yeah, I know… free will.”

I'm Better Now

I had my favorite Strawberries and Cream Frap at Starbucks just around the vicinity… One of the reasons why I think I felt okay after I broke out of annoyance. I even got a bonus. My Starbucks card’s virtually complete! 4 more stickers and I’ll have the Starbucks Planner2005! I’m not so excited about the planner per se. I guess it’s more of the thought that I will be one of the few or many who have got the sticker card completed.

At least I feel better now. I was able to let everything go last night. I was undisturbed. I just hope I’ll be in peace without end and that not worth mentioning being had vanished for good.

Oh please Dear Lord, say YES! Please!

The Trip (Day03)

In the past couple of months, the circumstances I had to deal with were utterly intricate. People close to me knew there was something wrong; still they were polite enough not to ask. They regarded my silence, nevertheless I knew they were all ready to hearten; I only needed to sound it out.

This is the very reason why we’re all here for a break! This was their idea.

We spent our morning of day03 at the Boardwalk, picture-taking and video. Lunch at the beach, the guys went jet skiing. And in the afternoon, we visited other vacationer spots outside the base. We certainly exhausted our stay. It was fun though.

Dear. This is our last night here...

The night was idyllic. I wanted to cuddle its immobility for I knew as soon as we go home; we’re all back at the ranch … To the demanding and exhausting metropolis, lives back to normal. I wondered how the change of milieu and ambiance make one person change his viewpoint, if not in the totality of life, at least to some of its beliefs. I, if truth be told would tell it is spot on. This grand escape from the fast-phased, hectic world I’m into made me realize some imperative niceties that I haven’t acknowledged since I engaged myself to wallowing back then. I never knew this trip will make a great change in me, in my life. The smiling sunny heavens showed subsequently the gloomy sky that seemed to chase me wherever I go. I never imagined this would lead me to let off. Mainly persons who have caused me so much hurt.

I closed my eyes and let myself feel the cold December air. It offers a soothing, comforting sensation for my heart and my soul.

“I have always adored your long, thick eyelashes.” For awhile I thought I was just hearing things, a deep tone at that. But when I opened my eyes, I saw him next to me, looking at me intently. I quivered. He had always given me nice commentaries. He likes the way I carry myself, my fashion style, how I take care of my friends, how I love my family, etc, etc. “Nagulat naman ako syo! Why are you still here? I thought you guys were supposed to leave this afternoon?” I asked. “Sudden change of plans lang.” he replied. “Ah, okay. What brought you back here? Makiki-dinner ka? Hindi pa tapos magluto sila Apple eh. Pass ako ngayon, ako na kagabi di ba?” I storied, just to keep myself natural. He might just notice I’m shaking because of his nearness. I still could not believe I’m back chit-chatting with him. I, by no means thought this scene will ever take place again. “Sobra. Hindi pa talaga ko nagdi-dinner but its not the reason why I’m here. Loko ka talaga!” He was laughing. We were laughing. And then he said, “Gusto talaga kita makausap… Pwede na siguro ngayon?”

Leave Me Alone

I am so damn UPSET!

Go figure it out.

You live your life as serenely as possible. You get on with the things that you faithfully wanted to accomplish. You again (after a long 2-3months of anguish), start off to consider that your existence is worthy and consequential. Then just out of the blue, here comes a pathetic, insignificant being that whines for some whatever reason, and obliterates the stillness of your living yet again.

Why can’t just some people leave you alone?!

Give me back my serenity. Leave me alone.

Ocean's Twelve

‘Ocean’s Twelve’… the movie I have long waited for. I’m a fan of Julia Roberts and Brad Pitt. It was a 2-hour film. The story was actually and obviously a sequel of the Ocean’s Eleven.

I enjoyed watching the film… with my favorite buttered popcorn, M&M’s Chocolate with peanuts and Iced Tea (weird mishmash, I know!). Grabe! Ang daming tao sa Greenbelt3 cinema… we took the 1030p show. While watching, I realized some things…

Nothing has changed. Pretty pa rin si Julia and… LOVE ko pa rin si Brad!

Last night, I watched the movie with ‘someone.’ It was the first time I, again watched a movie with ‘someone’ (after dinner and before late night coffee) in say, 2-3months now. It felt different… or was it just because the ‘someone’ I was with, was a ‘from way back (came back to life yata yung mas magandang definition) someone?’ A different 'someone' now.

What was their watchword in the poster again? “Twelve is the new Eleven?”

Indeed! ‘Twelve is the new Eleven…’

Lifepath

Your HEART shall tell you where to go…
Your MIND shall tell you how to get there…
And your LOVE for God shall guide you on your way…

Nobody Is

You say EVERYONE’S special…

That’s just another way of saying that NOBODY IS. --- The Incredibles

The Trip (End Of Day02)

But that’s how life really is, to my belief. Every single element, each detail, all actions that we make… it all has its particular reason and purpose. We may not always understand why these things come to pass; nevertheless in the closing stages, we’ll figure that it was necessary to take place.

“No. Seriously, tatawagan kita pagbalik namin ng Manila. Kakabalik ko lang kasi and the holiday season made it impossible for me to get in touch with you agad. Gatherings here and there; Na-miss yata ako ng lahat.. Mom was all over me too! Buti daw naisipan ko pang umuwi.” He’s not getting it, does he? He kept rubbing in the issue while I try hard to steer clear of it. And how am I supposed to react?

Everyone recognized him and gave their hellos. Well, most of them really approved of him back then. Why not? He’s cool, nice, thoughtful and easy to get along with. He took time in getting to know my family. My sister found the ‘kuya’ she’s been wanting all her life. Little kids in my family adored him. He loved me more than life itself… and now I’m thinking, 'What really went wrong?' I settled on talks about what’s up and how are things going for him. He harmonized. I guess he somehow understood that we shouldn’t rush in discussing intricate concerns for now. I walked with him; went to see his friends, our friends. They were as glad as I. We chose not to talk about the past. Just leave it where it’s buried. It’s over and done after all. At least everyone’s having a good life now or am I?

At last it was time to leave.

“I better be going. It’s almost 6p and magna-night market pa raw kami mamaya. Kayo?” I said. He asked if they can join the other guys tonight for their drinking session.. he said he missed the guys and that he wants to go and catch up with them as well. Did I have a choice? So this wouldn’t be the last time I’ll be seeing him. “Sure. That’ll be fun for them. Sasabihin ko kina Mark.” I said it as if I didn’t feel any quiver inside me.

We said our goodbyes, it’s actually more of ‘until tonight.’ Tonight’s gonna be a long night for me. And tomorrow’s not even sure of what looms.

'Qe Cera, cera..

Only God knows. Whatever will be, will be..

Maybe This Time

Maybe this time

Two old friends meet again
Wearin' older faces
And talk about the places they've been

Two old sweethearts who fell apart
Somewhere long ago
How are they to know?
Someday they'd meet again
And have a need for more than reminiscin'

Maybe this time
It'll be lovin' they'll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She's back in his life
And it feels so right
Maybe this time, love won't end

It's the same old feeling back again
It's the one that they had way back when
They were too young to know when love is real
But somehow, some things never change
And even time hasn't cooled the flame
It's burnin' even brighter than it did before
It got another chance, and if they take it...

She's smilin' like she used to smile way back then
She's feelin' like she used to feel way back when
They tried, but somethin' kept them
Waiting for this magic moment

Maybe this time
It'll be lovin' they'll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She's back in his life
And it feels so right
Maybe this time...

Maybe this time
Maybe this time love won't end

Forgiveness

• As difficult as it seems, you can be sure of this: At the core of the heart, you have the power to move beyond the old issues that are still hindering your freedom. The hardest things—the ones that push you up against your limits—are the very things you need to address to make a quantum leap into a fresh inner and outer life.
• The Past: Our cradle, not our prison; there is danger as well as appeal in its glamour. The past is for inspiration, not imitation, for continuation, not repetition.
• If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth… Soon the whole world will be blind and toothless.
• The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise.
• To forgive is to set a prisoner free and discover the prisoner was YOU.
• There is no revenge as complete as forgiveness.

The Trip (Day02 Continued...)

He and I met years back… Start of it was just mere acquaintances. Typical piece, we were introduced by a mutual friend.

It was a 3year-old relationship. The bond was blissful. We shared nice and pleasing moments. We endured the bitter ones. It was a pretty cool link. It ended for some reasons everybody knew, but nobody understood. Things at that time went a little taxing for us. I was starting a career, same as him… Ano na nga yung tawag nila don? ‘Nag-grow kayo apart?’ Or how else they call it, I’ve no idea. Last time I saw him? The last time was when we fixed on to end our involvement with each other. We settled on not to see each other anymore… less hurt, less pain for both of us. In fairness to him, I in reality asked for it but I’d say we equally did a good job in keeping our promise. And so everything else went on from there.

Four years… Four long years after that agreement we come across each other again.

“Nakita ko kasi sila Mark… Naalala ko t’wing summer and December, you go out of town with them. And just as I thought nandito ka nga.” He said while I was having my own time reminiscing. “I see… So, how are you? It’s been awhile, I’m really surprised to see you. You’re on vacation too?” I asked, as I slowly recover from flabbergast. “We’re on vacation, yeah. Kasama ko sila Drew… nandon sila banda eh. Sama ka muna sa akin pabalik don mamaya. I’m sure they’ll be all happy to see you.” He points on the opposite section of the shore. I agreed. I wanted to see them as well. They are our friends. The people I guess we have hurt more when things didn’t work out between him and me. I met them when he and I were starting… They have become dear to me since then. “How are you? What’s new with you?” he asked. “I’m good, thank you. Maraming bago. Surname ko bago na, pero malapit na uling magbago…” I riddled. “Okay… So what does that mean? Parang kulang yata one day sa atin to catch up on everything. And I’ve been planning to call you when we get back to Manila… Naunahan lang na nakita kita dito. I’ve some things to tell you kasi. Na-miss kita, totoo!” He said. I felt a shiver run down my spine. I faithfully understood what he meant but I can’t absolutely discern where he’s getting at. He’s right. A day to catch up isn’t enough… “Arte mo! Hanggang ngayon sugar coated tongue ka pa rin. Iho, kung kahapon lang kita nakilala, baka pwede pa kong maniwala sa mga pinagsasabi mo... Eto talaga! Hoy, ako lang to! H’wag ka umakting diyan!” I teased. There’s no other way to dodge the subject matter.

I tried to focus on some other minutiae. We talked about what’s up with each other. Talked about the comings and goings that has happened after our farewell. The conversation was unflustered, deep at the same time. For four years I, in all honesty took a crack in keeping my word. There were moments that I felt I shouldn’t have let go… that maybe if I held on to whatever it is that we had… maybe, a lot of maybes.

The Trip (Day02)

“How could she discern such?” Kim sensed I was hurting… Was I that obvious? Never mind. There’s no reason for denying… what’s the use?

I got up last the following day. They were all up and about, 8a! “Ate, 3hours pa lang tulog namin halos… grabe ka, ikaw mukhang antok pa rin?!" Spoilsport, that’s how I am for them. And so I decided to make it up to them. “Okay, today’s day tour and lunch at the beach.”

Never did I know, this day’s about to bring back times of yore.

After our exhausting day tour, as planned, we had our lunch at the beach and went swimming after. Everybody’s taking pleasure in embracing each and every surge that’s touching their exposed skins. Tired, I sat facing the deep and play on with my feet what's left of the wave. The noise around didn’t seem to carry some weight. I’m having a grand time, I thought. And I was thankful.

“Can I help you?” It was a man’s tone, I wasn’t sure if I’m the one being asked, though. “Mukha bang kailangan ko ng saklolo? Hindi naman ako nalulunod, bakit may nagtatanong kung kailangan ko raw ng tulong?” It was weird. I was talking to myself. Uncertain, I turned to my right and I found out who the owner of the voice was… him, sitting next to me! ”Holy angel of all angels! How did you know I was here?!” Yaikks! Tama ba yung sinabi ko? Parang mali! Parang feeling ako masyado… as if ako talaga sinadya niya dito! “Paano mo naman nasabi na ikaw sinadya ko? Bawal na ba ko pumasyal dito?” He laughed, more of amused. What can I do? I was shocked, taken aback, stunned… whatever you call it. He was the last person I intended to see or even just by chance to bump into wherever. “Sorry! I was just really surprised to see you here. Akala ko nasa States ka? That’s the last I heard from some friends…” I replied with an appalling air on my face. “How are you? Kelan ka pa dumating? What are you doing here? When are you leaving for the US again?” I asked him continuously. Parang gusto ko nang sagutin niya lahat para matapos na… I want to disappear. “Whoa! Wait, isa-isa lang hun… natataranta ko sa mga tanong mo eh.” he answered while giving me his all-time killer beam.

Fate. I guess it was providence that led us to come across each other again. Whatever the intention was… I’m about to find out.

New Year

Am I a day late?

The past week was quite a hectic one. I hardly had the time to drop in on my journal and other sites that I visit whenever. Christmas party here and there, you never run out them… its tiring, in high spirits nonetheless.

Though I’m a day behind schedule, all you exultant people… Happy New Year! May YEAR2005 be the dawn of a better and thriving existence to all of us!

Tristan Gabriel, Happy New Year Angel! I love you so much. Stay handsome and always be a good boy for me.
Jardine, we will always share sole happiness…
Dad, Mommy, and Kamille, I will never get tired of saying thank you. I’m the luckiest person… for I have you as my family.
Alarie, being thousand miles away to each other was never a hindrance to keep our friendship… Thank you for everything. I love you dear best friend.
Rose, sharing 12years of friendship with you is just sooo worth it.
Lhen, Rizel, times we shared always give me a bright smile on my face… I love you both.
Red and Mae, Thank you very much… hurts and pains were a lot easier to deal with having you guys by my side.
Aina, Thank you for the work overload! Love you!
Wally, Ferdie, Apple, Julius, Culet, Bj, Tess, Mike, Tin, Aasta, Johnnie, Weng, Cel, Pye, Doogie, Tina, Ted, Joei, Abbie, Ojin, Aries, Archie, Paolo, Lara, Lance, Chiqui, Che, Maggie, Analie, Paul, Mike, Rachelle, Toffie, Antonio, Paul, Jake, Carol,Pauline, Majet, Vaughnne, Love, Che-anne, Chill, and JayJay, I call you true friends. Thank you for sharing your lives with me...

To all of you, whom I may have caused hurt on purpose or not, whom I may have upset deliberately or not… I’m sorry and that you find it in your heart to let off.

And to all of you, who have caused me so much hurt and made me upset, with intent or without... I'm hoping someday soon to find it in my heart how to forgive and forget...


With all the love in my heart, TinTin